Esra Jackson, BA in English and Art
Statement:
I consider myself to be, first and foremost, a poet. I am interested in utilizing and manipulating the language of ‘things,’ the meanings their shapes, textures, and connotations carry, altering their context to fit my artistic objective. I am drawn to found materials, of all kinds; I often say that I only create art out of that which already exists, whether that be in concept or physical material, including words, the environment around me, keepsakes, etc.
With these found materials, I seek to explore the body (or lack thereof), in all its facets: The way the body can obscure, create, and enhance identity; the effect of an absent body and that which is made to stand in for it; the experience of having a body and all the baggage that comes with; the integrity of the body. This focus on the body originates from my mother’s sudden death when I was fourteen.
Left without any tools or people I trusted to help me through the depth of my grief, I found myself emotionally paralyzed and disconnected from both my body and hers, moving listlessly through the motions of living (or rather, surviving). As of recent, I find myself in a place where I feel safe to embrace vulnerability and feeling, willing to actually bear her absence, and yet, my grief hides from me. Much of my work is an effort to reconnect to that lost grief and to my mother, to tangibly record their fleeting presences.
This practice feels deeply ritualistic, leading to my continued use of religious imagery. I grew up in evangelical Christianity, an experience which alienated me from my body and my desires; I have since left those beliefs behind, namely as a result of being unable to reconcile my queerness and transness, integral redefinitions that I deeply cherish, with that which I was taught. I now repurpose these beliefs and the imagery associated with them, much like found materials, transforming them according to my own will. Through reshaping the sanctity of this imagery, I challenge dominant misogynist and anti-queer/trans religious doctrines concerning the body, reimagined narratives that can thus become sites of reclamation instead of condemnation. A framework that once felt so limiting and unapproachable, now becomes simply another language with which to express myself.